Reality hit me today…and it hit me pretty hard. I realized that my high school career was flying by faster than I expected. That was hard to accept, especially when I haven’t done anything to leave a lasting impact anywhere.
People say that the high school experience is something that they will never forget. Your first kiss, your first dance, your first <insert something memorable here>.
In other words, high school is a big deal. It’s a place where you make and create lasting memories.
But for me, I think the experience is something very different from the description above. I’ve experienced several firsts too.
-The first time I completely lost my confidence.
-The first time I felt this hollow, empty feeling inside of me when taking a test.
The list can go on and on forever. Its pretty sad when I realize how little I’ve contributed so far.
Don’t get me wrong. I want to be that red apple. I really do. I just don’t know how.
So I’ve started with the little things.
I began to open doors for people, help my friends with homework, and lend out school materials. Its not much, but its something.
Why do I bother?
I don’t want to be THAT person who watches their life go by and not doing anything about it. Too often, I feel like I don’t participate enough, do enough, contribute enough.
But along this roller coaster ride I realized something. In order to stand out, you can’t be afraid. I think fear is something that holds everyone back. Its something that prevents us from truly expressing ourselves.
I’m still trying to figure out what I want to do, who I am, and what I want to become. Its not walk in the park that’s for sure.
People will hate you, rate you, shake you, and break you. But how strong you stand is what makes you.
Don’t ever forget that.